My Future Bestseller

idfwfeelings

I am self aware enough by now to know I do not handle rejection well - and even when I am the cause of the end of a relationship, I still don't handle it well when they inevitably (usually quickly ... god forbid I date a guy who can

HEY, it's 2025!

Time flies when you're collecting content for a future bestseller (aka trying to survive)! I know I should post more - actually, I want to stop saying "should" but I'll stick to my good old 'no deleting or editing' rule, so f

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Life Lessons: 2024

Making up for a decade of stunted emotional growth one rambling & unedited post at a time.

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ALL the things

I wonder how many times I'll slip between disassociation and reality before finally landing in one forever?

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2024

Lists, trying to remember to 'keep it simple stupid', and a love of Hooters. Stay weird kiddo, you're doing great.

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onwards and upwards

I am no longer unemployed or just self-employed… and it’s almost frightening how good that feels.

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fine, if I'm being honest

ugh full transparency is a bitch, especially when it STILL doesn't help me behave.

that was dumb

It’s been a wild time in my mind per usual, but I’m finally coming back to myself.

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walk through fire

Today wasn’t my day - but it ended, and I’m better off for having survived it.

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FREEDOM

a quick update: onward and upward :)

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What's a Broken Heart?

finally over the shame of being a lovesick fool for months - WOO!

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Forbidden Fruit

wanting what you can't have: a part of human nature that I've spent decades trying to reform with minimal success (but hey, that's better than no success).

breakthrough part2

Does anyone else drive themselves insane on a regular basis, or is it just me? - a memoir.

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breakthrough

PART 1: up with the sunrise for the win!

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what am I doing

back to the drawing board.

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Trust Issues

"I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you."

Not Nice

A reminder to be 'not nice' if I want to maintain sanity.

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How I Know I've Lost My Mind

Stopping myself from free-falling into depression, insanity, or a one-way ticket to an insane asylum.

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gratitude

It is a wild ride inside my mind, that's for sure. I wish I could purchase a ticket to get off the ride, but I'll figure it out. That's my current slogan for life: I will figure it out.

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Stop, Breathe, Write...

So many recruiters, so much social interaction - brain is going into overload mode, time to settle it back down.

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Unsent Texts 3

Thank you universe for keeping me from sending these which would have been the equivalent of an invitation to take advantage of the vulnerable state I was in.

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Forgiveness

Written yesterday, before my prayers were answered. Takeaway? Keep writing, praying, meditating, and doing my best to make healthy choices in order to forgive myself.

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loneliness is okay

I'm going to live the best life possible or die trying - I think that's the takeaway from this word-vomit of a post. ew, I hate that word, but the phrase is a thing, right? Whatever.

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Livestream 9.13.23

This post is exactly what I needed to clear my head and end my night on a positive note. Thank you, MFBS, for being such a source of peace.

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Overflow Compilation

A pre-plan, the start of planning ... not quite sure, but as always just tons of thoughts from the last few weeks that need to be expelled from my mind to keep me on track towards this lovely healthy lifestyle I'm building :)