A New Solution for ALL the Thoughts...

I'm honestly still not sure if I'm joking, overtired to the point of hysteria, or what - but I like this idea: write down all the reasons I could feel awful every time I feel like shit. Worth a shot to get it all out of my head, otherwise I will have a psychotic break...

ORIGINAL THOUGHT: wow, I feel so much infinitely better thanks to breaking my "no smoking until after work" rule - and I'm going to end up eventually getting more work done sooner (hopefully)!

It started with the 'close friends' instagram story: I realized it could be utilized like snapchat without needing both apps (they're owned separately right? it's just facebook that owns insta? better believe I will check that and update).

Basically, even my mom making a new insta every few weeks won't result in her seeing anything un-Karen approved of! AKA I can be somewhat closer of my real true self on a public domain... is that a good thing? I honestly don't think so - now that thought has me twisted. This is why I love being WEED had to clarify, still no PKs for me! high for a bit (I'm sure I'll feel gross soon enough, I just felt THAT miserable beforehand - plus, food helps), it helps me slow down my insanely racing thoughts to a manageable pace. I'm sure it wouldn't seem that way reading this, but it doesn't matter because I never have to read it again - just writing it helps. If it helps someone else, then that's why I'm glad it's on a public forum (thank god, existential crises avoided).

Now for the list - all the things that could be making me feel like shit now that malnourishment/starvation are off the table:

1. I had to take yesterday's BC a couple hours ago, hormones' ... doesn't most get blamed on those? Note: Learn some basic biology/anatomy/life facts.
2. My to-do list is longer than it should be based on the ample amount of free time I have.
3. That makes me realize I have 10 messages from work on slack - please let this just be friendly banter. (need a way to differentiate...)

FUCKING WORK - but see, this helped!!

Update 1 minute later: I am 100% sending this link to my therapist after I deal with the work messages.

STEVE here's my accountability for my future self/the place where you'll be able to analyze what I should be writing in our Talkspace chat - you can let me know if I've completely lost my marbles or are overtired, I hope. Plus, you'll be the only one reading it as long as I'm not an idiot with the privacy settings!

Still 10 messages and now a meeting in 10 minutes...