breakthrough

#overflow: After months of being given the advice to wake up with the sunrise, I FINALLY did it (thanks to a Hinge date - so double win, innocent date and a sunrise!) and at 8:30AM after A WEEK of being so dark that my parents were concerned (so embarrassing) I finally finally feel alive! Without Vyvanse! Clearly I have been putting too much emphasis on 'needing' it - not a surprise, I know this, but it's one thing to know it and another to believe it ... and maybe another still to act it.

Anyways, my date was insightful too, because Dr. Prudy gave the advice yesterday to have 4 structured hours a day: an hour for the job search, and hour for yoga/meditation, an hour for online courses, and ... I forget the last thing. something I like? So I was telling my date this because I was so excited at how happy I felt despite it being so early, and he said he keeps it even simpler - just makes sure he wakes up, then does something that 'makes him feel alive.' So the fact my dad just suggested I jump in the pool (it's currently cold) by Florida standards is what I'm thinking I'll do before continuing this post - which will include this latest take on making a morning routine - and then (FINALLY) uploading the content for 'Furrsome Bites' (god bless the pet creator academy). Time to jump in the pool - as my 2nd potential hinge date* for the day just said, 'if you have to think about it you won't do it, just go.'

SO OFF TO THE POOL I GO! Might as well take advantage of having one, it'll be gone soon! I just made the 'feature' image for this (the quote about 'distractions' was such a perfect accidental fit for how I feel right now) and decided I'll post this and then have a part 2 to force myself to actually jump in. Ta ta for now ;)

xox,
Sammi - alive and well

*am I going back to the roster method? I don't know, I just know I finally snapped out of that LAME heartbreak and remembered that dating is just content for MFBS - I have so many old stories I need to upload here along with old journal entries, but I might as well keep racking up dating stories to compare dating in my 20s vs. 30s.