dare to be average

Wow this meditation class is so awesome I had to think it through here - Ellen is basically a mind reader based on the fact she answers my questions as I'm thinking them. Who knew something so great could come out of downloading 'just another random meditation app'! Insight Timer for the win - not because they're paying me to say so, but because I actually used it and liked it and am giving free marketing just like the old days via word of mouth... except online. I guess that's a pretty big EXCEPTion... fine, I accept that I'm wrong to be on a high horse about my tendency to over-thank companies via social media for nothing in return. In fact, I'm the idiot for not making money (yet).

Anyways, back to the topic at hand: meditation class. What a beautiful thing, 14 minutes a day and in 10 days I will have risen above social anxiety? Count me in. Ironically, when I went to get a screenshot, I saw this...

Gee, how'd you know I was wondering what to do with my life!? It's not like I posted a journal entry online with that exact question... jk, I did.

I'd be thrilled - how do I discover that work?

This is all from clicking "TAKE THE SPARKETYPE TEST"

If I were a betting gal, I'd place a hefty wager on there being a price tag connected to this 10 minute test to discover your Sparketype...

I thought for sure there was going to be some sort of brutal add-on after "Just" - because I grew up learning "if it seems too good to be true, it probably is" but apparently that's gone by the wayside! Hell yeah for freedom of information.

Alright, that's a task for tomorrow. Maybe I'll dream up the answer to "what am I doing with my life" too. What was my goal here? definitely to do something for the class... homework? ahhh yes yes, she said to pick something to be average at! hence the title, which is a book written by someone she knows (if I was listening accurately.. which I probably wasn't so I'll re-listen).

Relistening to the assignment:

"Feeling good the new mood therapy" that's the book! Wow, that header title... can't even learn not to be perfect without being a nerd about it. Anyways back to listening. Am I generally overcompensating or the type to stay silent? In general I think overcompensating, but based on the examples I resonated with a couple in each. Classic case of me being a mess of contradictions.

a few stood out as perfect for my anti-perfectionism:

For the overcompensating:

1. Be an average level of friendly for a day instead of overly friendly (to anyone/everyone, i.e. grocery store clerk)
2. For a day, don't proofread any emails before sending
3. Let your conversation partner carry half the convo instead of having to do it all yourself (this is an interesting one just because I like the way she worded the act of having a conversation as being based on the individuals 'carrying' it rather than it flowing naturally... I guess that's not what we're here for).

Not so perfect:

1. Look less than put together in public? HAH, always.

For the quiet:

1. Respectfully disagree with someone's opinion - BOOM that hit home, I hate how agreeable I am.
2. Offer to help even if you don't know how to do the task very well (maybe? idk, I offer to help all the time).
3. Show someone a project in progress that you think isn't ready to be seen. WINNER! My future bestseller, obviously! But who...? TBD.

God no don't:

1. Volunteer your opinion even if you haven't thought it out completely - in fact, maybe under/over think a bit less and just focus on ensuring my opinion is honest and relevant to the conversation.
2. If you typically defer to others, voice an opinion about what movie/restaurant. (I'd need to go out to have the chance to voice an opinion, but I generally always defer to others. "Easygoing" as they say).

Damn, lots to think about. NOW it's bedtime... xoxo <3