goals

I alluded to this in the first "dark days" post, but just to remind myself I do have life goals to fall back on:

answer the questions: "who am I?" // "who do I want to be?" // "why am I like this?"
this once again makes me think i should go back to school to learn more about neurology/psychiatry.
my parents want me to be happy (no matter what karen says to try and keep me living under her and dads constant surveillance) - must stop my subconscious thoughts from sabotaging my plan to get my own place for me and maige. SET BOUNDARIES.
—> update 1/12/22: officially staying in Raleigh for a month WITH Maige at an AirBnB ... taking back control of my life finally, no more blowing along like a leaf in the wind.
don't be poor - I think that's a quote from 'betches love this' (throwback, I know) but it works: pay off my student loans and start using money to invest in my future rather than quick-hit happiness that's short-lived and only leaves me wanting more.
Learn to train service dogs, starting with Maige. LONG TERM GOAL: buy a big enough property to be a home for foster kids that will each be responsible for their own dog's training. The idea is still a work in progress, but it's getting there...
Decide where to buy property... or, to be sappy about it: find where I belong in this world. Raleigh is as good of a place to start as any.

UPDATE: 8/31/22

In my other post from today I said I needed to start setting SMART goals, and I knew I had a 'goals' post somewhere... safe to say, the list above definitely doesn't meet the Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Relevant, Time-Bound criterion, but it's a start. anyways, as I said in my last post... I have some UV rays to soak up while enjoying funemployment & trying to get Maige to swim. But soon there will be real SMART goals to be achieved logged in this lovely future bestseller - or whatever the hell this is.

xxS