manifesting

going all in: imagining the future me

*3/2/23: I can't speak for the person I was on 2/15/23, but I can safely say that I've learned manifestations can change. When it comes to OF, that's gone... The sane part of me is trying to remember that while I use this as a journal, it is on the internet. I know no one sees it, but... I don't even want to finish that.

I am with the love of my life who thinks it's innovative that I had an OF page at 32, because making money on pictures I enjoyed taking (and even sometimes posting... does that make this too shallow? no, confident!) is the reason ALL of my student loans are paid off. I won't be worried about where my next paycheck is coming from, because I'll have so many income streams. This 'pet creator academy' I've been procrastinated starting or even thinking about? FUCKING OWN IT! (<– more of a note to self than manifestation, but this is a WIP after all). All I have to do is work hard: follow the training program to learn the art of sales/user generated content. I will LOVE my brand partners and find a community of like minded pet loving people in this new world. Future me loves to reminisce about how I used the training from creating pet content to improve the income from my other social media - or something new & too cool for current me to even conceptualize. My future bestseller will be a bestseller: be it a book or a movie spin-off, podcast, blog, vlog... something will come from my ramblings. This writing will have helped not only me but other addicts trying to hack it in the real world.

Damn, manifesting is heart warming.

... I guess I just need to face my fears of failure/rejection that are so deep seated I hardly realize them. Honesty is everything. THAT is what will make this worth reading, and that is what I need to do. Embrace who I am: even if that is a modern day sex worker laid off from her corporate job wasting money on elaborate multi-level marketing (or now I guess it's called 'generating content' and the payment structure seems more legit) schemes in hopes of finding a way out of student loan debt without slaving away at a soulless 9-5 job.

Now I just need to believe all of my manifesting and NOT think the way I just did in that last paragraph even if my brain shouts it at me. Some peace and quiet would be nice... back to book land <3

Good luck future me, but you won't need it: the universe has your back.