ohhh to be alive again

I honestly don't know if I should be crediting the --

... this was 7 months ago, and I have no idea where I was going with it. SO instead I'll use this draft to add some pictures from my messy journal that's filled with work and rehab notes. a bit sad to see how optimistic I was at the start compared to January 2022, but as I've said.. I'm a permanent work in progress.

clearly the beginning when I was trying to figure out who everyone was .. and a date as content for this. smh.
i took some serious notes during the 'healthy diet' lesson...
well now there's a reminder to eat - healthy or at all...
"not everything is going to go the way I want it to when I want it to"
not a bad value there I suppose...
you have to be loyal & honest to yourself first
clout chasing demons? who knows.
well at least I'm (kind of) working on that 9/9/2020 idea...

"fuck what people say, because who are people and how do I know what they're saying?"
I distinctly remember writing this in Florida - I was so miserable, and it scared me how happy receiving that package made me (despite the fact it did nothing to help/was nothing like adderall... further proof it's all mental).