My Future Bestseller

Overflow Compilation

Sammi -

My list of qualities for a future soulmate got aggressively lengthy, so I'm separating out the parts that are unrelated for this WIP post:

I'm here because I've been doing a lot of reading of self-improvement type books thanks to the app headway (forgot to cancel before the free trial ended so I figured I'd make the most of it, and the book summaries are actually awesome) but in order to start making positive changes in my life I know I need to keep better track of all the lovely helpful tips I'm learning.

And the other WIP post on this same topic:

Time to break down life into manageable chunks & utilize all the self improvement tips I’ve been reading:

Personal life: health, family, friends, dating, home (aka where to live), habits, hobbies, and MFBS.

Professional has 2 big categories: corporate (analytics) and self employment (propet). There’s no reason I can’t make ProPet as successful as I make it sound in interviews, I just need to focus on it now that I've eliminated any memories of my former partner and talked to potential new ones for the sales calls.

I need to draw this out because I’m envisioning drawing lines where personal & professional overlap: ie anything website related will be useful for propet and MFBS.

Writing this makes me worry about all the times I’ve thought “fuck it, why bother” and just read my kindle all day instead of any work towards any of my personal or professional goals - time to use that worry as motivation to make a plan that allows for less work to be required to start doing anything that moves me toward my goals. Instead of letting the panic that I don’t even know what job titles to apply for take over and disassociating myself from reality, I finally know I’m in a place where I can let the anxiety exist without focusing on it. Instead, I’ll make a list of action items for both categories of my professional life as “things I can do” rather than “everything that needs to be done” … that slight wording difference is key because past attempts at doing this haven’t seen much follow through so I need to change my perspective to ensure this time is different.

One of the books talks about a 2 minute rule: you can do anything for 2 minutes so to build healthy habits start with just 2 minutes per day of yoga & meditation. Getting into the habit of doing both for just 2 minutes will lead to doing them for longer (motivation from action!) & can build the foundation of the daily routine I’ve fought against creating for too long.

Do I expect myself to go from 0 to 100 by suddenly doing ALL the things tomorrow? No, because that would just be “all or nothing behavior” and not sustainable. Instead I’m going to create a “habit scorecard” tomorrow and start tracking my habits with the goal of doing at least 2 minutes each of yoga and meditation. Will it be a win if I also read a summary on headway, play the impulse brain games, and finish a dbt training? Of course, but l want to see if setting the bar for success lower will be effective at improving the chances of finally creating a healthy routine.

"There's no such thing as failure, only feedback" ... love that quote.

3 weeks later...

Time flies when you're in a permanent existential crisis! The above is from 22 days ago but I'm publishing it now because the theme of needing to break my life into categories, set goals for each, and then break those down into action items is one that keeps popping up and I need to get moving on actually doing it. At least I got more of a start than I thought, but ironically I also realized that the 'external accountability' I just posted about was all based on something that I'm not even posting until now. Turns out that the act of writing it down for MFBS without even publishing it yet (someday I will figure out the app and be able to publish them from my phone - not today) works just as well as actually publishing it!

Anywho, while I'm compiling all the thought-vomit from my notes/google docs, here's the one from earlier today...

so many thoughts clogging up my head, OUT:

  • Update MFBS with this and the others written but not posted (done! nice)
  • Consolidate notes from phone, memos, “memory cards” on headway, etc
  • habit scorecard!
  • I love myself I love myself I love myself
  • Visualize ideal future job & getting it
  • Breathe
  • I am doing a great job on this journey of self improvement/back to health
  • Catch up with Jills dad
  • finish ProPet submissions
  • FUCK EXES!!!! For my sanity I’m better off pretending he doesn’t exist. In fact, I'm going to be sure that while I meditate I rid my brain of all annoyingly lingeringly thoughts of the narcissistic jerk I thought I loved.
  • Dating apps?
  • Social posts: swim nkd, eye cream ... all the free stuff
  • Update propet info - who to do sales? mikey? dutch?
  • HEALTHY HABITS: meditation, yoga, headway app —> little steps = big progress!
  • Travel: chicago? denver? call adam/brandon
  • Florida: JS? Syd? Aerial yoga classes?
  • talk to amanda about visiting (AYA! if you're reading this, book the flight! my phone is MIA per usual...)
  • Reading the kindle separately definitely helps.
  • use scribd since I accidentally paid for a year long subscription- unless I can cancel it?
  • write out goals & steps !

...Where's the plan?

Right, well, it's Friday at 6:30PM, I had interviews all day, I'm in Florida and want to get outside. So I suppose my first goal is to actually write out plans/goals for the categories I started breaking out a few weeks ago (aka all the rambling above). Everything I've read emphasizes the whole idea of 'no procrastinating' and that old saying 'do not save for tomorrow that which can be done today' ... but in this case, getting these published is a start and will be enough to keep the momentum of building healthy habits/creating a plan going.