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My Future Bestseller

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External Accountability

How to finally build healthy habits: call yourself out in your own online blog/diary/livestream/future bestseller ;)

The N Word

The N word is NO, duh ;)

Kids First, Ego Last

Kids First, Ego Last

Lots of thoughts (of course) with a list of qualities that are required in my future soulmate - making them qualities I'm going to do my best to live up to myself. Thanks for the idea doc!

New Beginnings

Not sure how audio will work out, but 10 days in before a huge interview tomorrow seems perfect for getting some clutter out of my head... and turning them into life lessons (hopefully).

The End of a Chapter

Moving day was a dark day - but I survived, and here's my thoughts from 1am while driving from the first place I've ever had on my own into an unknown future (to stay with my sister to start - thanks sissy) ... in both text and audio form, once I learn how to compress the 1/2 hour audio file.

Unsent Texts

The newest chapter to emerge from the mayhem of my life & mind: time to channel extra thoughts where they belong, and that's far out of conversations and here where they can be yelled at the top of a mountain and lost into the expanse of the world wide web.

livestreams Featured

my lifeline.

MFBS tags are a mess, but those 4 all fit: here is a livestream about a failed dating game which broke my heart but I learned my lessons and am making progress. Watch out world, I'm setting myself free and no one's holding me back anymore - especially not myself.

to all the boys I've ever loved...

to all the boys I've ever loved...

Shit, my icy cold heart has melted for the moment - but it feels important to capture, so here we are.

Livestream: 7/11/23

It's been awhile, and this isn't much of an update, but better to pour my thoughts out here than via text to an ex, right?

confusion

just contemplating casual questions such as: what am I doing with my life? an existential crisis, live from my brain to the page.

4/4/23

Slowly but surely finding my sanity - I'm probably sitting on it, like my always lost juul. ha-ha not funny.

session 1

Session 1 notes - not organized and definitely will need to be cleaned up, but wanted to get the thoughts out while they were fresh.

potential life lesson

A life lesson turned cliche that I realized wasn't much of a lesson in the end. Writing is a wild ride.

clarity Featured

Lifeline

Why do I have so many tags? I need to clean that up. More importantly, I found God. That sounds more dramatic than "I now understand spirituality on a new level" <3

manifesting

going all in: imagining the future me *3/2/23: I can't speak for the person I was on 2/15/23, but I can safely say that I've learned manifestations can change. When it comes to OF, that's gone... The sane part of

quick rant

... i pay over $300 a year for this ghost pro software, and so far my minimal attempts to do cool things have said I need to upgrade my subscription because my video and audio files are too large. fuck that, I will be learning how to compress the files or

i'm a fraud

apparently I'm making up for last month's nothingness with a vengeance this month. I'm either repeating the same mistakes with a different flavor, or slowly but surely getting at some life lessons/finding my way in this existence I've overcomplicated.

dark days backfill

alive again.

a summary of month numero uno in 2023. because this is apparently some version of the never ending story.

silver lining!

A happy train of thought - future me, good luck following this one. Monkey mind much?

NYE

me vs. myself vs. I -> riveting monologue of the voices in my head. At least they're all my own voices (queen of silver linings over here).

soul work

There's A LOT going on in my brain right now, but it's surprisingly kind of positive... just, clearly, not exactly well defined trains of thought yet. Baby steps...

apathy defined

depression sucks. I really need to figure out some sort of direction for my life.

livestreams Featured

sigh

how to go crazy: have SO MANY thoughts yet take SO LITTLE action.

Life Lesson(s)?

highdeas Featured

Life Lesson(s)?

Finally... some actual useful things for my future self to remember.

regression?

Depressing thought as the title, but it's the first that came to mind as I sit myself in my yoga swing with my laptop to write this - getting my laptop felt like rescuing a hostage, so I should probably make my home 'office' more enjoyable.