My Future Bestseller

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Phase... 3?

Musing out loud about what the point of this blog is and what I want to do with it before directing any traffic here.

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Get it together

No more procrastinating, time to knock things off this ever expanding to-do list. Here's to hoping writing it out will hold me accountable...

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Phone Note from 8.24.22

A note from last week on my phone + some positivity for a change... so to future me: you don't have to be scared to read this one! (well, not too scared)

being human is exhausting

I am really trying to make getting laid off (with 900 other people and a great severance package) into an opportunity to finally make a bit more progress on this whole "soul work"/what are my values/do I have life goals type of mental/emotional gymnastics. For

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post from phone notes 8.24-25

can I buy some motivation please?

ohhh to be alive again

I honestly don't know if I should be crediting the -- ... this was 7 months ago, and I have no idea where I was going with it. SO instead I'll use this draft to add some pictures from my messy journal that's filled with

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Okay, no psych ward needed.

The search for sanity continues.

livestreams

not a clue

c'mon sammi, back at it with the livestreams please if I want to start improving.

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life is so weird.

so many thoughts

depression hacks

think less do more

don't follow me, I'm lost too.

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still swimming

RIP ducky </3

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REMINDER

time to start bringing my content where it belongs: out of my head/notes/journals and into here.

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Confession Time

Time to stop hiding from myself (and this blog) and start writing out the mayhem in my mind again until I can make sense of it. In this case, the mayhem is wondering if I've ruined my sobriety...

SOS

so much for my cheat-code to help with going back to work... i should have known there's no such thing as an adderall substitute that works (god knows I've tried them all). aside from a bit of placebo effect, I'm right back to my

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goals

what am I doing with my life? (drumroll please...)

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1.5.22

death by sobriety

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10.04.21

october’s take on sobriety…

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12.27.21

a post from a google doc since a few weeks ago i was too lazy to figure out how to get back into the editor :)

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more mayhem

a nonsensical post kicking off a new sub-group of articles thanks to a day of mental freedom.

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hey world

quick update from sept 2021 (aka 2+ months sober)

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i survived!!!

miss me? I made it!

beautiful chaos

Pretty sure there's a country song called 'beautiful mess' ... but I don't feel like looking it up, I just was thinking that in relation to my life in a rare moment of calm bliss and figured I should capture it. Ohhh and that reminds

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idk

take a bow bitch, this is an accomplishment to be celebrated: YOU'RE FREE! Officially out of your own way, congrats and let's keep it this way.

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winning!?

yeah, I'm so shocked by the happy title that this probably reads like I'm high on meth (something I've actually never been, weird - missed my chance I guess), but in reality... I'm just trying to soak up the sunshine while it's here.

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ambushed but free!

after 30 years of pretending to be the perfect daughter, my parents finally know I was no better than your average drug addict - I AM FREE! to be what? no idea yet, but at least I don't have te even pretend I'm innocent anymore.